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The Need for a New (shortish term) Plan
My anticipated two month stop in Thailand is now approaching two years. Anytime I remember that initially, my planned time in Chiang Mai was five days, I can not help but laugh and laugh and laugh….. Okay, I do not … Continue reading
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The News. An Addendum.
Well somehow in my crafting that last piece over 3 computers and 2 devices, in a few word processing programs, etc etc, I seemed to l have left out a few things I had wanted to add, and a few … Continue reading
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The News.
January eighth. A tuesday. The day I got the results from my 150 day experiment. It started with me sleeping in a bit longer than normal, two hours of meditation and then my new weekly Qi Gong class, a class … Continue reading
One Hundred and Sixty One
So I wrote this at the beginning of August of last year, or you know, 161 days before today. (In my mind, this was going to be published on Jan 1, which was exactly 150 days from when I wrote … Continue reading
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Tagged cancer, chemo, diet, drastic change, fear, healing, lymphoma, meditation
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Immunotherapy
Today was my sixth immunotherapy session – sixth of nine (perhaps I should have waited till Wednesday to write this for that random Star Trek alignment…) sessions in my first battery of treatments. It is getting easier on my body … Continue reading
Sometimes, Good News Changes Everything
I loitered in my room a bit longer than I ever should have. Well, if I was planning to make my appointment on time. To say I was nervous about what I was going to hear would be quite the … Continue reading
Tapping the Spine
In my mind I can not think of a spinal tap with out thinking of ouroboros. It not just that they are removing these primal fluids from your back, which I think of as akin to embryonic fluid, its that … Continue reading
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Tagged cancer, fear, lymphoma, optimism, spinal tap, war planning
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A Spectacularly Piss Poor Day
So last Monday I called my doctor. Yep that is all it took to make my day totally, utterly crap. He confirmed exactly what had been suspected: I do in fact have cancer. My journey to Laos the night before, … Continue reading
Things One Thinks While Being Cat Scanned
I am not sure how, but as I was resting in the cat scan machine yesterday I had a marvelous thought. I kept thinking about one of the major tenets of Buddhism, “what one thinks, manifests.” And how in no … Continue reading
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