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The Big C?

Getting the News: In his Thai inflected English, he said, “it looks an feel cancer.” as he pinched the ping pong ball sized growth under my right arm. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes as he squeezed it. … Continue reading

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Remission, Just a Fools Game, part 3

Part 1 Part 2 After spending a whole day bemoaning the return of unwanted interbody hostilities, where I rejected even the most basic notion of getting out of bed, I used Friday to find some sort of escape for the … Continue reading

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Remission, Just a Fools Game, part 2

Part 1 Like being stuck watching an awful sequel to a movie that you never even wanted to see in the first place, my Lupus is back. I got the news late last Wednesday night. And after five days of … Continue reading

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Remission, Just a Fools Game, part 1

There is a song, that I am sure most of you have heard, by Bonnie Tyler called It’s a Heartache. I feel these lyrics infinitely capture my last week: “It’s a heartache/Nothing but a heartache/Hits you when it’s too late/Hits … Continue reading

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Rescuing a Heart Dismissed

One year ago today I met Gaby, the love of my life. We went to see the amazing film Orlando then walked clear across Manhattan talking, getting to know each other. As fates had it, we took the subway to … Continue reading

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Why Does India Want Me to Smell and Look like an Asshole?

Something horrible happened last week. It was a very, very terrible, sad day. I did something that I promised myself I would never, ever do. Yes, I bought a pair of Crocs — well an off brand that has no … Continue reading

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Disappointment, part 1

Ever since I first saw The Mysterious Cities of Gold as a kid, I have long desired to visit Matchu Pitchu in Peru. These ruins call out to me in a way that I really can not convey. The voices … Continue reading

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