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One Hundred and Sixty One

So I wrote this at the beginning of August of last year, or you know, 161 days before today. (In my mind, this was going to be published on Jan 1, which was exactly 150 days from when I wrote … Continue reading






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The Big C?

Getting the News: In his Thai inflected English, he said, “it looks an feel cancer.” as he pinched the ping pong ball sized growth under my right arm. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes as he squeezed it. … Continue reading






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Remission, Just a Fools Game, part 1

There is a song, that I am sure most of you have heard, by Bonnie Tyler called It’s a Heartache. I feel these lyrics infinitely capture my last week: “It’s a heartache/Nothing but a heartache/Hits you when it’s too late/Hits … Continue reading






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A Leviathan Returns?

Yesterday I restarted my bi-monthly hyperbaric treatments. I was really hoping it would have the restorative powers it often has had in the past. I needed a kick. Only it was not to be. I am either still quite felled … Continue reading






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A Very Good Friday

I had no idea Easter was happening until I saw someone on twitter post about it being Good Friday. Honestly, one of my favorite things about being in Asia is that I am pretty much able to avoid Christan holidays, … Continue reading






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Vipassana Course, part 3

Sometime last year I was asked what my best vacation ever was. And due to my dark sense of humor and general snide attitude I said, in that oh so matter of factly way people tell me I am so … Continue reading






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Bonus time

When I first heard that I had fiveish years till my kidneys failed five weeks ago, my pores clenched. My skin turned to diamond. I turned off. I had tried to prepare myself for the worst news possible for the … Continue reading






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