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Cancer Out of my Hands

As a play on and tribute to Harvey Pekar’s wonderful graphic novel, Our Cancer Year, this is the first of many posts about My Cancer Year, (ooh…. a new tag….). This is an updated version of a post I wrote … Continue reading






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The News.

January eighth. A tuesday. The day I got the results from my 150 day experiment. It started with me sleeping in a bit longer than normal, two hours of meditation and then my new weekly Qi Gong class, a class … Continue reading






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You are What you Hear Too

One more avenue I walked down in preparing a cancer free zone throughout my body was though music. I started listening to the first three of these songs every morning after meditation to psyche myself up with positive thoughts spurred … Continue reading






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One Hundred and Sixty One

So I wrote this at the beginning of August of last year, or you know, 161 days before today. (In my mind, this was going to be published on Jan 1, which was exactly 150 days from when I wrote … Continue reading






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Writer’s block, the Immobility of Illness, and Where to go from Here

Ever since my surgery last October, I have been fairly silent here. Not totally, but enough to have made me wonder: will I ever update my blog again? This was by no means for lack of want or even effort. … Continue reading






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Immunotherapy

Today was my sixth immunotherapy session – sixth of nine (perhaps I should have waited till Wednesday to write this for that random Star Trek alignment…) sessions in my first battery of treatments. It is getting easier on my body … Continue reading






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Sometimes, Good News Changes Everything

I loitered in my room a bit longer than I ever should have. Well, if I was planning to make my appointment on time. To say I was nervous about what I was going to hear would be quite the … Continue reading






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Tapping the Spine

In my mind I can not think of a spinal tap with out thinking of ouroboros. It not just that they are removing these primal fluids from your back, which I think of as akin to embryonic fluid, its that … Continue reading






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A Spectacularly Piss Poor Day

So last Monday I called my doctor. Yep that is all it took to make my day totally, utterly crap. He confirmed exactly what had been suspected: I do in fact have cancer. My journey to Laos the night before, … Continue reading






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The Big C?

Getting the News: In his Thai inflected English, he said, “it looks an feel cancer.” as he pinched the ping pong ball sized growth under my right arm. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes as he squeezed it. … Continue reading






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