Frankly, I am full of them.
My immediate response to the five year time frame was that I need to see all the stuff in the world that I have always dreamed of seeing. I need to travel till I simply cannot anymore.
But this brings up so many questions.
How do I quit life and become a traveler? How do I get rid of all the stuff I have acquired over my 35 years? How can I afford such an endeavor? How can I not afford such an endeavor from a spiritual/mental point of view? What happens if I get sick on my journey? Where do I go? Where do I go first? How do I leave a place that is home to me, that I never really plan on returning to? Where will I find a new place to call home? What exactly do I need for these travels? Will my friends come and meet me somewhere on my journey?
And those are just the most pressing questions? Well other than the ever present, all consuming “just how long do I have till my kidneys blow out?”
Sadly, I have no answers for these yet. But I am working on it. And with my goal of having an outline of what I want to do by August 1st, I am working on it quite hard.
this song seems wildly appropriate:
The Chemical Brothers (featuring Beth Orton) – Where do I Begin