In 5 Years Time…

Hearing that you have fiveish years till you are tethered to a 100 sq mile radius certainly makes you reassess your life.

As far as anyone can tell I have been dealing with the repercussions of “wolves eating my kidneys” (lupus) for at least 20 years. Only to have it diagnosed a few years ago. In this time I’ve been nearly physically glued to nyc due to regular visits to my doctor for care. I know how it feels to be tethered.
Or so I think I do, as I still have the ability to travel, I have just not used it much.

But basically I have allowed my disease to grant me the ability to stagnate.
And with this stagnation I have fermented. And well like a good wine It is time to decant myself into far grander possibilities.

I had promised myself and others that today would be the day I unveil my plan for the coming years, and while that might still happen, it is looking doubtful. But it is coming together, well at least the first part of it. When I was first saddled with the notion of ‘only 5 years’ it seemed so close, like it was just over the horizon as I barreled towards it as fast as possible. Now it seems both vast and ’round the next bend. Shallow and near infinite.
It is also laced with so many possibilities and outcomes that I need to build in flexibility – something i have not really been known for – into what ever i come up with.

So while I continue to peculate my plans for the end of my life with mobility, I will leave you with this wonderful song by Noah and the Whale discussing how much can change in just 5 years. I would be lying if I said I have not been using it as a sort of sigil to help me formulate my plan by listening to it near daily.

Noah and the Whale – 5 Years time

About Randy

I'm just a guy trying to out run his dying kidneys and live life as vibrantly as possible. Until I can't. I grew up in Tejas. Went to school in Vermont. And currently live in Brooklyn. But not for long....
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