Monthly Archives: September 2011

Ten Things

To help keep me in good spirits these days, a huge task as I wait for my cancer biopsy results (of which I heard nothing this past Friday, and am now expecting to hear something on Monday), I’ve been listening … Continue reading






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Things One Thinks While Being Cat Scanned

I am not sure how, but as I was resting in the cat scan machine yesterday I had a marvelous thought. I kept thinking about one of the major tenets of Buddhism, “what one thinks, manifests.” And how in no … Continue reading






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The Big C?

Getting the News: In his Thai inflected English, he said, “it looks an feel cancer.” as he pinched the ping pong ball sized growth under my right arm. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes as he squeezed it. … Continue reading






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Where I Remember the Important Things

Something happened between now and when I left NYC, nearly a year ago. I am not sure of what it was, but I know it was/is destructive. I left NYC not just to see the world and the places I … Continue reading






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