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The Big C?

Getting the News: In his Thai inflected English, he said, “it looks an feel cancer.” as he pinched the ping pong ball sized growth under my right arm. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes as he squeezed it. … Continue reading

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Where I Remember the Important Things

Something happened between now and when I left NYC, nearly a year ago. I am not sure of what it was, but I know it was/is destructive. I left NYC not just to see the world and the places I … Continue reading

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A Leviathan Returns?

Yesterday I restarted my bi-monthly hyperbaric treatments. I was really hoping it would have the restorative powers it often has had in the past. I needed a kick. Only it was not to be. I am either still quite felled … Continue reading

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A Very Good Friday

I had no idea Easter was happening until I saw someone on twitter post about it being Good Friday. Honestly, one of my favorite things about being in Asia is that I am pretty much able to avoid Christan holidays, … Continue reading

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Dancing Like You Mean It

Okay. Many of you many not know this about me, but I love to dance. I am now mostly just a chair dancer due to my stupid leg, but I give every chair I’m in my all and swing about. … Continue reading

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Brother, can you Spare a Kidney

So as most of you know, I am ineligible for a kidney transplant when it gets to that point. You know, what with my body fighting and rejecting my own organs, what do you think the chances I’d have with … Continue reading

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A Hyperbaric Solution?

My hyperbaric treatment is over. Six sessions down. While I will not miss that claustrophobic feeling of being sealed in a glass box, I am really going to miss the feeling of what i must call “healing”. I have no … Continue reading

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Entering a Hyperbaric Chamber…

I am not looking for a cure. They tell me I am incurable. Every one’s kidneys have a lifespan. Most outlive their host. Mine will not. This is fact. I keep trying not to dwell too much on it. Yeah… … Continue reading

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I used to eat at least one banana a day.

Bananas always have been one of my favorite foods. I literally ate at least 10 a week for pretty much my whole life. Along with tofu, kale, blueberries & sweet potatoes I consider them one of the worlds perfect foods. … Continue reading

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A Brief Glimpse of Northern CA

I’m in San Francisco. I rediscovered why California is one of my favorite places. One word: REDWOODS Here are two pictures for you till I can complete my longish post of my redwood sojourn. Just a little clue: it was … Continue reading

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